Don't judge a book with its cover...

and don just look everything on its surface only.....and

Ouch...it hurts...but...i always tell myself

No Pain , No Gain.  If i didn't hurt, i will not learn to appreciate..

tis blog seems dull to me...
And also..sometimes things around me are simple...but i like to make it complicated to make some ppl confused..because sometimes i don wan them to know...or...sometimes i'm trying whether they understand or not.

Well, i'm that kind..too bad.

What i should do? Everyday do the same thing....but the worst thing is, i'm not even looking at the BOOKS...

eat...game...sleep...wake...game...sleep.
lol? routine huh?

but i rather stay at home than going out.....because....i think the world outside is boring without friends...and my friends ...like dissapeared during the holidays......why? college.....bored..

I still remained silent....Silently..... AND.....who is the ONE.....the ONE...

24-5-08

Last night, after the blog i wrote yesterday , happened something and changed my mood. First , my mom was enjoyed looking at the hamsters playing around at the wheel. Then, she found out 1 of the hamster was fierce for no reason . " why that hamster so fierce la today?"  And then she don care and ignored . And i knew it something wrong with the hamster, yes , it's leg stucked at the corner and it was unable to move. So it struggled hard to PULL its leg , and results in its leg partly pulled off. I can see its bone...and blood around the place. Yes, I came for a while only because i CARE of the hamsters, while my mom sitting infront of the hamsters' cage for 10 minutes and didnt notice anything. What she only care is those cute hamsters that are running at the wheel.
I know it was a tragedy , and i could not blame anyone . But , I still blamed my mom because of HER IGNORANCE. yes same thing happened to another LOST hamster. that hamster lost when she changing the soft bedding for the babies hamster, she put them into a small container, thought of the hamsters wont run.
Yea, my mom again . 1st one i DIDNT say anything AT ALL, but this time really pissed me off.

So today i brought her to a vetenary . And he cut the hamster's leg off. It cost me RM75...wow...wow...my RM75 gone....and then have to bring it to the clinic every day somemore...

At first, i thought the hamster ( black in colour) is unlucky because it was borned in black colour. Yea, it was unlucky. Before that, she always play the wheel happily , with another hamster . Now her leg is gone and can't play it anymore with anyone. Her life just changed in 1 day...pity for her because she just opened her eyes to see the earth for 1 month only...So much hardship

Another thing....when i placing the hamster cage on my table, then my bro's water tumbler fell down and the water leaked to my table next to my computer. WOW all my books there and my phone cable, camera cable, and mp3.
Yea, which *black stars* is cursing me? my bio reference book was *soaked* and my mp3 handfree spoilt.  WTF? not good enuf with the hamster case and now another case? YES PERHAPS I NEED TO TEACH MY SMART BRO TO CLOSE A BOTTLE .

Just came back from my uncle's birthday dinner . Guess what ? Almost all of my relatives( age from 18~25) brought their girlfren/boyfren to the dinner. LOL~  I saw them laugh, chat silently among each other, and happiness when they look at each other's eyes =3

1 of my aunty said to my bro : " where is ur gf ? Must bring ur gf to dinner so we can know each other "
After my bro said " next time first " , then she asked me the same question , i replied " haha~ no one will be my girlfren"
Lols whats in my mind ? maybe ppl like me never get such 'xin fu' de feeling .

o.O everything is changing , and so do I . I wanted everything to be different , i wan to have a new lifestyle , i wan to be independent ,and i wan to have a soulmate.  And actually i admire a girl too =) but too bad she is totally different from me, again. xP *looked away*
Maybe i don really experienced a true love yet, because i know the previous one is quite fake and our world..is totally different . Sometimes i`m really good in acting, huh. Hiding my feelings, my personality, and my thoughts.

Hmm, my bro going to college tomorrow . Guess he gonna rent an apartment together with his frens so the transport fees can be handled. Then i will be alone , yeah~
By the way, i decided to take my driving license during the first week of holiday =) Today i also saw all my relatives (age 18~25) have their OWN car =O i wan toooo. =P i`m addicted srry..

All the post above is all about jealousy =O i`m a jealous person, ew ...ppl always said when they knew this is me " U SUXXX"        " u're so fake..."

Where'd you go? I miss you so..